random confessions vol. 1

• I can't stand when people mispronounce words/use incorrect grammar....it's like fingernails on a chalk board to me. But I'm getting better at not verbalizing the correction....just announcing it mentally. I'm also getting better at stifling the visual grimace/cringe.
• In the back of my mind, I feel like I failed somehow when Chloe had to be born by c-section. I was so sure I could do it naturally....and I can always do whatever I set my mind to.
• I am unquestionably addicted to nestle toll house choc chip cookies (the ready to cook dough). I have absolutely no will power to keep from eating the whole cookie sheet full. It's horrifying.
• I'd love to have my house fabulously decorated but lack the motivation and funding to pull it off.
• While I do like my job, I would love more than anything to just stay at home with Chloe every day.
• Even if I didn't work full time I probably still wouldn't get all the housework accomplished that I should.
• I abhor the smell of vanilla and lavender. They both make me want to gag.
• Reading is a drug for me....a total escape.
• In fact, an ideal vacation day = lying on the beach reading all day.
• Winter depresses me.....profoundly.
• I desperately want to move back to Virginia. I miss my family very much....but there's still a little bit too much drama back there.
• Some moments I wonder what the heck I was thinking when I chose nursing as my career. Sometimes the moments last for a whole day or two.
• I need to exercise and eat healthier but I lack motivation.
• Someday I WILL own a steinway piano.
• I wish I could have multiple careers- photographer, piano player, English teacher, nurse.
• I'm really good at starting projects with an energy that is astounding and better yet at leaving them nearly finished for way too long before I finally get around to finishing them. Why do I run out of steam so easily?
• I used to have an overwhelming desire to change my name to Samantha. Now I can't stand the name. (No offense to anyone named Samantha)
• I can remember building snowmen in the front yard with my dad one time....I think I was 3 or 4.....it was late at night.....and it had snowed a lot (for Virginia anyway).....I remember feeling like my dad could do anything.
• My favorite destination so far has been Paris. I can't believe Aaron enjoyed the trip as much as he did. I was afraid he'd be miserable.
• Some moments when I look at Chloe the depth of my feeling of love is so overwhelming it makes me cry.
• It flabbergasts me that I could love another child as much as I love her.
• After almost 7 years in a relationship together, Aaron and I have still never had a fight.
• I thoroughly enjoy gift-shopping for people. I could make a job of it. Sometimes it thrills me more than buying anything for myself.
• When I think of all the patients I've cared for in the short 3.5 years I've been a nurse it's mind-boggling.
• I've never been slender/slim/skinny....whatever word you want to use. I've always wished I could be.
• The bureau in my bedroom doesn't actually contain any clean clothes. Clean clothes remain in the laundry room on the table. It's easier that way.
• I'm worried that by the time I finish having kids I'll be bald judging by the amount of hair that came out over the past few months.
• I have a really hard time saying no. And I volunteer for way too many things.
• I absolutely abhor cleaning house. Hate it with every fiber of my being, which is why it rarely gets done. Good thing for a husband who contributes to house cleaning.
• Even though I've been playing the piano for almost 20 years I still get really nervous playing in front of anyone other than family.